The TFMR forum helped me to start thinking about the future. I really didn’t know how I would have overcome the whole thing without it. I found comfort in reading other people’s stories, who shared their experiences, and really opened up – I remember thinking, ‘That happened to me’, and ‘That’s how I feel’.
It’s an awful thing for anyone to go through but through this forum, I found a sense of salvation – I still do today. There’s a real strength in the group of genuine kindness and optimism, even for those women who have been through multiple miscarriages and TFMRs.
Like me, I found many women wanted to TTC (Try to conceive) again straight away. It seemed to be a common feeling, that when you lose a baby, you do want to be pregnant again – not to replace the baby but I guess it’s part of the healing process – to get back to that time in your life when you were having your baby. To convince yourself, yes it was a horrible tragedy, but the whole thing was some sort of ‘blip’ in your path to becoming a mother.
On the forum, each month, there would be a ‘cycle train’, e.g. The October Train, and any members of the forum, TTC that month, would request a ticket (it would be the date for their next period) and if they were lucky to get pregnant, it would be turned green, or red, if Aunt Flo showed her face.
Heartbreaking it is for those women who try month after month, year after year, and not conceive, the train was there for support as well as a motivator – it was such an amazing feeling to see those ladies get their BFP (big fat positives) after so much heartbreak.
For anyone reading this after a TFMR, I really encourage you to join a forum. You can anonymously post your story, your experiences and feelings, and you will see the overwhelming kindness and warmth you will receive from fellow women. It really will lift you up and kick start you, whether on your road to recovery or trying again.